Day 3 recap
I felt way better in the morning than days 2 and 1 combined. I still don't feel great, but this ain't bad either. I miss feeling my level of normal but I'm not itching for coffee. This is just annoying.
Sex drive is back slightly. Sleep and digestion have been great.
Forward
This experiment has become somewhat of a 'what does my final form look like.' I'm interested in my real level of energy when I'm not spiked up on a daily basis. The nagging fear in the back of my head is - what if my real energy sucks? What if I can ONLY feel good and normal with a drug I've been taking in daily for decades? That voice can scream all it wants. I don't think I'll be able to answer this question honestly until I've been off the black sauce for a few months. If my life is truly better with it, so be it. I have a feeling that I'm going to feel differently. Every single thing I've worked to remove from my life - porn, social media, soda, clutter/things - has improved my life in ways I didn't expect. Why would coffee be any different?
Day 2 Recap
Day 2 sucked in a way day 1 did not. Where day 1 brought headaches, day 2 brought overwhelming fatigue and a complete void of a sex drive. I was definitely less edgy than day 1, but the edge was still there. I had 0 desire to work out, so I just put in 10min of glute ham raises. Like day1, exercise performance was not really that impacted. Intensity definitely takes a hit, but I'm going more so for volume/hypertrophy these days anyhoo.
I found that intermittent fasting worked extremely well at keeping my energy up during the day. I only hit an extreme low once I broke my fast at 430p. Longer fasts (closer to OMAD) may work better in this case. Also important to note that I broke my fast with a fuckton of peanut butter, bread, and honey. MAYBE just maybe the sugar rush had something to do with an extreme drop in energy. I dunno I'm not a doctor.
I've never had to quit anything substantial before. Cigarettes never really took with me. I drank booze because I thought I was supposed to drink booze to be social.
Recently I've been looking at where my anxiety, digestion problems, and fluctuations in weight occurred. Smack dab at 18 yrs old. What happened at 18? Two things:
I went from confident and energetic as all hell to depressed, anxious, and tired unless I filled my tank constantly. I've already dropped social media this year and happier for it. Dropping coffee, sucks. It really sucks. Beyond the simple fact that I love the smell, the taste, and the feel of coffee, I feel like absolute dogshit right now.
It's important that I write this now because I tend to forget the journey and the outcome when I relapse. So far...
Day1:
I'm kind of a low grade dick to everyone
7a-10a, when i usually drink coffee, is awful
I'm not tired but I'm not 'up' either
One small headache which clears up with an Advil
Workout went fine. No noticeable drop in performance
Everything done in the order below. I performed an entire circuit (~2-3min set). Rest 1.5-3min then restart.
All sets stop 1-2 reps before failure.
Pushup variations
RTO ring pushups
Ring pushups
Floor pushups
Rope tri extensions
Pullup variations
Towel offset ring pullups
Ring pullups or close grip ring pullups
Ring pullups + band
(remember for next time) Jackknife pullups
Squatting variations
BSS jumps
Trap bar jump squats + 50lbs
(remember for next time) Jump squats
BSS
(remember for next time) Squats
~32min total
Stretch shoulders and biceps
Focus shifts away from heavier weight and completely to moving medium weight as fast and violently as possible. No failure allowed.
)lm push press x4
)trap bar high pull x4
))depth drop pushups x4
))trap bar squat jumps x4
)))ankle hops x4
)))lm pendlay rows x4
