addiction and dopamine

What am i addicted to? Like really really addicted to? What thing gives you thaf little dopamine boost and that feeling of ahhhhhh fuckin finally when you give in? Does this thing also make you think...why am i doing this? I know this isnt good for me but i just want it out of my system.

For me? Porn, reddit, youtube, and looking up exercises. I think about this all the time. All the time. The little engineer working in my brain exchanging dopamine for schmekels demands it. And what's the payoff?

- porn: i want to see some loads in some mouths stat.

- reddit: what if im missing out on something huge on wallstreetbets.

- Youtube: random looking up an exercise or checking for new content.

- exercise: lets see what person X has to say about weighted pushups.

Here's why these are bullshit.

- Porn: ive got a wife. I can see loads live. Also, when i was single using porn made me feel empty after.

- reddit: i will sometimes miss out on things but its covered by the news. That being said, these misses dont change my investing strats.

- YouTube: i rewatch videos all the time like a safety blanket.

- exercise: i already like weighted pushups. I dont need reinforcement.

When i look at these things im not trying to get better or learn something new. Im actively sucking away at my limited supply of willpower and dopamine.

Fill in these addictions for yours. How much energy do you gives yours versus what you get back? Did you exist before you had these things? Can you be happy without these things?